10.04.2024, Jasmin Schweizer
The longer I live, the clearer the important things in my life become. With the years of life, the purpose of life is also extracted. What remains has substance.
I imagine a filter in which everything I have experienced from my childhood, my youth and my adult life gradually comes in. The older I get and the more experiences I have during my life, the more the content takes on depth. The space becomes tighter, the lived condenses. Below, only the essence comes out and survives time.
With this substance, which shapes my behavior and defines me essentially as the person I am, I sometimes deal with. In a positive way, when I feel strong, successful, healthy and satisfied, loved by others, or at least liked and receive appropriate feedback. . In this state, I feel gratitude for the fact that I am so lucky in life, that I feel carried and secure, and that the universe obviously means well with me.
But there are also times when things don't run smoothly, when I offend others and myself. Again and again I fall back into the same patterns. I live in the past, repeat my actions and reactions. I behave the way I used to behave, even if it doesn't make me happy, in the worst case even sick. It's like a compulsion and happens automatically, triggered by something or someone. In retrospect, I am annoyed that it happened again. Sometimes I am at a loss, resigned, do not know if I will ever manage to change. That frustrates. In such moments, it is easy to blame circumstances or others.
But the older I get, the more substance remains, the freer, braver and unconventional my mind becomes. What do I have to lose if I look honestly, if I don't fool myself? What do I have to lose if I face my shortcomings and name them? What do I have to lose when I deal with my life and try to become aware of my destructive behaviors? What do I have to lose if I sit down, take the time and seriously think about where I want to change? Nothing.
The way there is exhausting, takes perseverance and energy, sometimes makes you sad, sometimes angry and insecure. But I have no choice. I'm sure if I don't go down that path, life will catch up with me one day, in a way I don’t want. "Just as it calls into the forest, it resounds back."
When I'm ready to start with myself, I no longer have to complain about others or the circumstances. What a freedom! It is worthwhile to follow this path, to let go and to trust me and life. So it is clear what I will win:
A good life.
translated from the original German version
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